16 June 2010

This and That

I have had a lot of shocking haven't-posted-anything-in-HOW-long? records in my short blogging career, but I think that one conquers them all. (Do I feel guilty? Um, not really.)

I went to Kenya for three weeks in May. More about that later. The trip involved things such as four-inch beetles, marriage proposals (although not to me), fainting, and going 52 hours straight without sleep.

I graduated. Sort of. I thought I graduated last year and then I kept on doing grade 12 courses, since they were free and I wasn't doing much else besides working. So I'm sort of graduating now. Except not officially because I don't have any grade 10 credits. I was never one of those homeschoolers who was confused about what grade she was in until I started taking classes at public school.

I started getting things together for Capernwray next September. If you have ever wondered, student visa + criminal check + trying to find the cheapest flight although they won't book round trips that far in advance + the UK disapproving of people entering without a return ticket which brings us back to the Visa thing = a whole lot of fun. Oh yeah. :D

I stopped writing. Really since the end of NaNo, but "officially" from about February to now. I think I'll pick it up again eventually. Maybe soon. For all my grand advice to people about "no, your writing isn't perfect now, but keep at it because practise is the only way to get really good," I grew tired of pretending--pretending to have life experience I didn't. Writing about emotion I knew only from books, and making my characters experience things instead of stepping out and trying them for myself. The results felt fake and empty always. Right now I'm thinking maybe life first, words later. Learn now, give back when what I have is worth a little more. But mostly, no more hiding.

8 comments:

  1. Good thing no one proposed to you. Whoever does that will be incredibly sane. I'd fear for their insanity. ;)

    KEEP WRITING! *wails* You're REALLY good.

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  2. Good for your for taking the step of not pretending any more, I have found that when I take that step if not now but eventually it will be incredibly freeing and wonderful! In fact, it often makes me wonder why I didn't do it sooner, especially when I knew I should have done so.

    (PS: If it's any help, I am much to deliciously busy to even care to write fiction and stories, I find living reality is much more worthwhile.)
    Krys

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  3. ditto to above. It was a good choice to stop pretending to be something you're not. :)

    Megan

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  4. Megan - hey! Good to hear from you again!

    Krys - Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm not really talking about pretending to be a personality I'm not, or fakeness in how I interact with people (not that I thought you were saying that), more like...pretending I know more than I do? Or something.

    Hannah - But critiquing other people's stuff is so much more fun. ;)

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  5. Ah, yes. Still, pretending is pretending, (upon which I think we both agree) so it's still really good that you've taken the step to change that. =)

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  6. Wow. So you're going to UK for college? Cool!

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  7. Not hiding anymore - I know what you mean, Kelsey. Why? I'm there.

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  8. It's funny - I've been feeling a bit like that about writing too. I'm finally "living" - and it's cutting out the imaginary life. Strange. A bit uncomfortable!

    But one thing: your writing holds a lot of truth already. It's worth a great deal right now. Never underestimate that!

    Love you!

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